RDTRN Archive - RDT Right Now #1830

RDT Right Now #1830

From: Scotch <scotch@torithoughts.org>
Date: Tue, 24 Jun 2003 21:57:38 -0400 (EDT)
Subject: RDT Right Now #1830
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Do not hit reply to unsubscribe. To unsub, send a message to: <rdtrn-request@torithoughts.org> with "unsubscribe" in the subject and body. o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o Really Deep Thoughts Right Now Volume 03 : Issue #1830 . o - O - O - O - O - O - O - O - o . o o . o o O "Thoughts right now... O o What will become of me, o o Become of her, become of we?" o . o o . O O O - o - o - o - o - o - o - o - O o . o o o Tori Amos, "Thoughts" In this issue: o-o-o-o-o-o-o bada bing! [ "ms. jessica parsons" <fullblownlif ] Bethey's in Love.... [ "Beth Coulter" <betheqt@voicenet.co ] Life As I know It [ "Lori A Near" <nearlori@pilot.msu.e ] soooo tired [ Succubus Megan <Abulia@imaterrorist ] randomness [ "John Kwiatkowski" <rattlespark@hot ] heading out [ Cyndi S Crawford <cyndi.crawford@ju ] Been veerrrry busy [ Roxanne Rieske <rokzane@dimensional ] Re: RDT Right Now #1828 [ john bragazzi <utown@worldnet.att.n ] Missed a digest? Pick up a copy at the RDTRN archives: http://www.torithoughts.org/rdtrn/archives -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o [top] Date: Sun, 22 Jun 2003 17:31:45 -0700 From: "ms. jessica parsons" <fullblownlife@hotmail.com> To: rdtrn@torithoughts.org Subject: bada bing! woohoo! sopranos and the season premiere of sex and the city TONIGHT! digest 1829 should've been called "the day after prince william turns 21 and the day after harry potter and the order of the phoenix." i managed to read the whole book yesterday. depressing but good. i won't say more unless anyone else is reading it. amazing how normal harry potter is despite being so famous in the wizarding world. it's proof that famous people are normal and still don't understand the opposite sex! victim of a willy wonka sugar headache, jessica no means yes, yes means harder. _________________________________________________________________ MSN 8 with e-mail virus protection service: 2 months FREE* http://join.msn.com/?page=features/virus -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o [top] Date: Sun, 22 Jun 2003 20:40:23 -0400 From: "Beth Coulter" <betheqt@voicenet.com> To: "RDT Right Now" <rdtrn@torithoughts.org> Subject: Bethey's in Love.... I quit smoking. Cold turkey. Thursday at noon I smoked my last cigarette with my therapist and haven't touched another since. I got the Nicatrol inhaler, but have only barely used it (2 cartridges in all instead of 6 - 12 per day). See, I decided any soulmate worth his stuff wouldn't want me to be a foul tobacco smoker, so I decided to be a non-smoker. Just like that. Funny what meeting your soulmate can make you do. And if this works out like it feels like, it'll be the sweetest story ever (maybe campus legend). Ready? I had class with the Professor all last semester. Nothing sparked but our minds. He was teaching metaphysics and I was his single advanced student. He's this 50'ish hippie, with the greatest outlook. We really saw eye to eye, so I decided to grab a soc class this summer with him. Peace Studies. I'll be posting my papers soon, you should read them. The US is wholly responsible for Hitler getting as far as he did. We had a chance to stop him in the late 30's and decided it was none of our business. So I'm all riled up by what I'm learning in this text book, and write these 20 page papers the week preceding class. It was an accelerated summer session, 2 weekends, two weeks apart. So Friday night for 3 hours, Saturday from 9 to 4:30, and Sunday from 9 to 4:30 we are doing heavy discussions on this stuff, and how wrong our nation is. The Professor just saw things the same way I did, the same sort of solutions that escaped the rest of the class (just like in metaphysics). But on Sunday he was using verbatim ideas from my papers, so I told him after class that he really should give me credit where credit was due. He told me he hadn't yet read my papers. My jaw dropped and I told him that he thought way too much like me, it was really scary. Then we did a double take at each other, and I saw *him* for the first time. I pulled the usual Bethey, running out like a bunny rabbit, without looking back. I didn't know what I was feeling, what I had seen. He wouldn't leave my head, he got into parts of my head that NO ONE has been in a decade. All from a glance. I wrote that poem, but it only made it worse. So instead of fighting it, I sat and pondered what it was. It wasn't infatuation, even though there was a physical element to it. It wasn't love, because I don't believe in love. Then all the words of Richard Bach came flooding back to me. I found this Ferret Series between courses, and I think I was supposed to be open to finding my soulmate. The Professor was my old friend. I recognized him in a second. I felt sort of foolish for not having recognized him in the beginning. But I wasn't looking. And I wasn't ready last semester. I'm finally in the last stages of integration and finally ready to be a full person. So last Tuesday I went up to campus to drop off papers and see him. I waited a few hours (not knowing his schedule, just knowing he had a class on Tuesdays). I almost left when he drove in as I was driving out. I whipped around and parked. I walked over to him and told him I'd dropped off some papers. He looked at me and said, "Are they good?" I told him I'd had an epiphany. He smiled, "Are you all right?" "No" I told him. "I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think and it's all your fault!" Then I asked if he had a moment to talk. We went to his office and he got a chair cleared. I repeated my plight of insomnia and anorexia then told him I couldn't get him out of my mind. Something happened after class Sunday that wouldn't stop making itself known. He was blown away and didn't know what to say. I told him he could say "I'm flattered Beth, But..." He smiled and said, "I'm flattered Beth....I don't know what the but would be." Then he said something about his last 4 girlfriends having found their husbands while with him, so maybe something like that would happen to me. I told him I wasn't interested in finding a husband. I wasn't looking for anyone. "It's just that I think if someone is a soulmate, you should tell them. No harm, no foul. Even if we aren't supposed to be romantic, it's nice knowing someone who is part of the same spiritual fabric. No matter what, our relationship in the classroom won't change. There'll be no oddness, no awkwardness because of this exchange." I told him to think about it. If something happens, great. If not, that's good too. He was practically speechless, just stammering how "brave" I am. I told him I'm no coward, and I have no ego really, and I had to get it out of my head. "And now it's in yours and I can get some sleep." But we touched hands briefly as I left, and boy, I think if anyone was looking they could see the sparks. Badly, it seems I was heard by a student standing in the hall, cause she was giving me this shit eating grin while trying to sidle up to his door. Oh Well. No harm, no foul. That night I decided to quit smoking on Thursday, and called to leave him a message on Wednesday to let him know I'd be tobacco-free the next we met, and by the way, what did he have to lose? Didn't really get him out of my head, but I was more comfortable with his presence in my mind while doing school work. Friday night class was fine and he said he was still thinking. Saturday, after class, I gave him a long promised aura reading. It was really cool, and he was a bit surprised by the depth I saw there. He is so hurt and so guarded, women have mistreated him so badly. He doesn't let any of that show on the outside. After I was done, I asked if I could make a proposal. After our last class, I'd like him to come to Casa del Bethey to just sit and chill and talk. "I don't go the program, I don't date, it's not my style. I just want to be with an old friend" is the way I put it. He said he didn't feel "right" about that so soon, but maybe. That, and he's working 2 classes this session, so is going 5 nights a week and then some. Come July things calm for him. Of course, I'm taking Geology and will scarcely have a second to spare. Cosmic Jokes, got ta love 'em. ;) So I wrote him a letter and poured it all out, every thing I know and see and feel (and maybe a fantasy to be?) and gave it to him privately. I walked him out at the end of the day and I told him I'd be up on Tuesday to drop off my last papers. I told him to enjoy the read and he nodded to where the envelope securely tucked privately in the top of his cooler and said "I will." I said, "I know." And now here I am on line, thinking he won't call while I'm telling you all this. He is so wounded that I must accept going even slower than I'd want to go, and I want to go really freakin' slow. But I have no doubt that the Professor is my soulmate and it's a good time for us to have met. Instead of completing each other, we increase each other at least double. Can you imagine the impact of Two Bethey Brains Connected to Change the World??? The world will freakin' change if we are working it together. So I'm happy and stressed and feeling scared and loving the fact I can feel at all. And I can only tell people hundreds and thousands of miles away because I can't have anyone I know know about this. It's really a small world. I'd be surprised if there wasn't someone on this list who at least knows someone else in my area. Rumors spread and I prefer being a private person. I give enough of my personal truth to the public at large, I should be able to be private in my hometown. So what cha think? Kinda cool, huh? Peace, Beth It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it. --Aristotle www.bethcoulter.com -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o [top] Date: Sun, 22 Jun 2003 22:26:44 -0400 (EDT) From: "Lori A Near" <nearlori@pilot.msu.edu> To: rdtrn@torithoughts.org Subject: Life As I know It Ahh, it's good to open a digest and see more than two posts, and posts with really good content... I have to say, I know why I stay subscribed to this thing... Thank you, everyone, for your musings on *my* musings. It's nice to just get feedback from people who *don't* have day to day contact with you. I've decided that I'm going to continue working on pay off as much of my debt as possible, while studying for the GRE. Not sure what'll come of it, but already it's making me feel like I'ma ctually *doing* something instead of just becoming depressed about it. The car still runs, and it's getting some spots of rust, but just spots. Not too bad for being 7 years out in Michigan weather all the time. I put some oil in her yesterday and noticed there are parts of the engine, though that are getting some rust. That's annoying. But, eh... she's paid off to the bank, that's what matters right now. Oh yes, and she runs.... that's mucho important... So, has anyone here tackled the grad school animal? Any stories? I've got some friends in that loop right now and just... I'm thinking of going that route, and could use any advice I can get! And oh my, some Tori content! I'm going to the Meadowbrooke show over in Rochester Hills in August. Pretty crappy seats, considering I've had awesome ones almost every show since the '98 Plugged tour. Maybe Joel will take pity upon me and my mates... My goodness am I disjointed tonight... ~loria now playing: They Might Be Giants - Cowtown (anyone seen Gigantic yet? I want to!!) -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o [top] Date: Mon, 23 Jun 2003 00:04:05 -0700 (PDT) From: Succubus Megan <Abulia@imaterrorist.com> To: rdtrn@torithoughts.org Subject: soooo tired Hola mes amies, I came back to my dorm today after spending the weekend at home and I think that, the hour after I got back, was the point where I decided that I just...don't....care. It took me until 1 am to start on my homework and even then that was an effort. My god. I don't know what's wrong with me. I have a friggin week left and I don't want to do anything. I need a break. I so need a break. It's either break, or breaking point with me hitting it. Fuck. Argh. It's 3 am and I have to get up at 7:30 and I still have logic to do and I don't understand logic and there's too much to understand and GOD. Argh. I'm so bitter right now. Thank god I don't have a roommate. They'd have killed me. Damn my neuroticism. Dude. I gotta get back to my Film Analysis paper. I'm comparing American Beauty and Meet Joe Black. Lots of similarities in those two; big theme about life/death, dysfunctional families, forbidden love affairs, etc. God I'm tired. Screw logic. I'm finishing my paper and then i'm going to bed. I have a CPR certification class tomorrow that I need to be awake for, too. Fuck. How Now, Brown Cow? Megan Christine Auffart *************************************** "I like money better than people. People can so rarely be exchanged for goods and/or services!" - Buffy the Vampire Slayer *************************************** http://www.angelfire.com/poetry/abulia/ _____________________________________________________________ Sign up for FREE insane email from tshirthell.com's E-Mail Hell at http://www.tshirthell.com _____________________________________________________________ Select your own custom email address for FREE! Get you@yourchoice.com, No Ads, 6MB, IMAP, POP, SMTP & more! http://www.everyone.net/selectmail?campaign=tag -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o [top] Date: Tue, 24 Jun 2003 04:43:12 +0000 From: "John Kwiatkowski" <rattlespark@hotmail.com> To: rdtrn@torithoughts.org Subject: randomness So, I really don't have a whole lot to say, but I thought I would post just to help fill up a digest a little bit. This weekend is gay pride here in Houston, and also a popular street festival is breaking the law and moving back to its original location without permission from the city. Both this are happening at the same time, at the same place. some 200,000-250,000 people are expected to be wandering around my neighborhood this weekend. BLECH! I'd rather just sit at home and curl up with a book, but it's my boyfriend's first pride so he's all excited. I'm *really* into Alice Walker right now. Has Tori been a spring board to other artists for you? Examples: Because of Tori's cover of A Case Of You I bought some Joni Mitchell cds and fell in love with them, and her music. Tori mentioned Possessing the Secret Of Joy in some UTP articles and it sounded interesting so I picked it up. I had never read any Alice Walker before and was totally amazed at her writing. Lately I'm back on an Alice Walker kick and that's helped me get into another amazing writer. Alice Walker mentions Zora Neale Hurston as one of her biggest influences, so I decided to check into her. Right now I'm reading "Their Eyes Were Watching God". One of the things I love about Tori is how her music is so layered and leaves you plenty of opportunities to dig deeper and discover other things you like. I guess that's it really. I'd love to hear other "what Tori has opened you up to" stories :) take care, john k *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* "There are years that ask questions and years that answer." - Zora Neale Hurston blog: http://www.xanga.com/venusunfolding summer reading blog: http://www.xanga.com/msceliesblues _________________________________________________________________ Add photos to your messages with MSN 8. Get 2 months FREE*. http://join.msn.com/?page=features/featuredemail -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o [top] Date: Tue, 24 Jun 2003 06:23:31 -0400 From: Cyndi S Crawford <cyndi.crawford@juno.com> To: nothing@cobalty.com, precious0147@hotmail.com, jodihorner77@hotmail.com, nicolethurman28@hotmail.com, mjcentral@hotmail.com, mjfansreunion@yahoogroups.com, rdtrn@torithoughts.org, lyricallacquer@hotmail.com, airport8@hotmail.com, katgrrrl01@hotmail.com, Northernlad111@yahoo.com Subject: heading out Well it's Tuesday morning, everybody, and I'm heading out to Oklahoma... *looks at watch*... as soon as my dad gets up and we get ready to go.... yep.. any minute now... ANYWAY.. I'm going to be there for a couple of weeks. Yes, I'll have internet access, so I'll be able to email ppl and so on, at least. :) This is my last email for the day as we're going to be driving for 14-16 hours without any stops (overnight, that is.). So on that note.. LATER! :) Sincerely, Cyndi S. Crawford http://www.icenine.org/cyndi/ -- http://artists.mp3s.com/artists/368/ciara_blaze.html -- http://learntothink0.tripod.com/learntothinkagain/ -- http://www.geocities.com/keyyooo/clique.html "I know we're dying / and there's no sign of a parachute / we scream in cathedrals / why can't it be beautiful / why does there gotta be a sacrifice?" -- Tori Amos ________________________________________________________________ The best thing to hit the internet in years - Juno SpeedBand! Surf the web up to FIVE TIMES FASTER! Only $14.95/ month - visit www.juno.com to sign up today! -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o [top] Date: Tue, 24 Jun 2003 07:13:28 -0600 From: Roxanne Rieske <rokzane@dimensional.com> To: "Really Deep Thoughts, Right Now" <rdtrn@torithoughts.org> Subject: Been veerrrry busy hey all, Been busy as heck over here. school, school, and more school and in the the process of purchasing a condo. To make it all worse, my bunny had to go into surgery this week to have a bladder stone removed. Hopefully she'll be able to come home today. Violet, have you ever heard of a bunny developing a bladder stone? my vet was a little amazed. We're trying to determine what caused it. Oh, and FYI, I do not recommend joining the yahoo group Pandora's Aquarium if you as outspoken as I am. I posted a disagreement to something someone else wrote and all hell broke loose. Next thing I know, I'm booted. And they boot lurkers, how lame is that? Losers. Roxanne -- ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ These, precious things, let them bleed; let them wash away. These, precious things, let them break, their hold on me. --Tori Amos ******************************************************************************* -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o [top] Date: Tue, 24 Jun 2003 21:20:40 -0400 (EDT) From: john bragazzi <utown@worldnet.att.net> To: RDT Right Now <rdtrn@torithoughts.org> Subject: Re: RDT Right Now #1828 I sent the other one before I meant to. It was done, but I had intended to put a snazzier subject line on it. Oh, well. Bethey said: > I still have 3000 words on solving the current world problems and > bringing a lasting peace and it is supposed to be realistic. Yes, but when you figure it out, you can post it here. > Better yet, can you just walk up to someone you've known for 6 months > and say, "I just noticed you were my soulmate. Do you remember we > promised to meet again?" Well, you can, but it's often not a good idea. Of course, mostly that hasn't stopped me, and I would have had a pretty boring life if I'd kept those kinds of thoughts to myself all the time. Sometimes it's better to say them early, just because if you become really good friends with the person, and you know that there's a chance of messing that up, the urge to hold back can become stronger and stronger because there's more at stake. Just my opinion, and this is not a field where I can claim any expertise. As B/4, John o-o-o o-o-o o-o-o o-o-o o-o-o o-o-o o-o-o o-o-o o-o-o o-o-o $$$ My Shoulder Still Aches From Yesterday's Damn Tetanus Booster Shot digest $$$ To POST messages to this list: <rdtrn@torithoughts.org> Can't figure out how to SUB, UNSUB, or CHANGE ADDRESSES? Send a message to <rdtrn-request@torithoughts.org> with "help" as the subject. Digest PROBLEMS or QUESTIONS? Contact: <admin@torithoughts.org> Want your BIRTHDAY announced on RDTRN in 2003? 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